DEAD MEAT!!

OMG!! ITS ONLY LESS THAN 2 WEEKS B4 SPM.... wa...so scared!! i dun noe what really in my mind now... it seem like i dun want take the SPM.. but wut can i do??? i have to!!! my future depends on this SPM.. deep inside, i want get the 10 a1 but it is possible??? i wnat be like sai, go to france.. n study oversea!!!! can sumbody pray 4 me???

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No matter how bad you feel, loneliness will fade and even disappear when you focus your attention on things you'd like to explore.There's whole world out there.Sometimes, it's better to have time alone, to have the complete freedom to do things, without worrying about what other people will say.In the end, you don't really have to think of yourself as a lonely person..."just someone who has been given enough space to grow..." is it rite????

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whoa...i think i am the failure!!!!!!

OMG!! it has been two weeks since i started my trial spm examination.... damn.. its really2 hard...
kno .net ....not..net.... ok.... lets forget about it...

lets me talk about this...sumthing that i really-really want to share with ....i dun know...
after a long time,
i got the chance to see him again,
he smiled at me and i did the same.
he asked me if i'm ok
and i nodded.
then the words instantly came from him
and he started to say:
"i miss you so much!
i miss your voice,
your eyes,
the touch of your hand,
the way you crack jokes,
the words i love to hear from you,
i miss the way we were before."
he hugged me tight
as tears fell from my eyes...
i said:
"God! he still loves me.."
and then...
...i woke up.

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one week to go before trial spm...wawa......takowt gler!!! my pre trial test is so damn sucks!!! i dun noe why maybe bcoz i am stupid dumb dumb..haha... but i dun think so....poyo jerk!!! almost all of my critical subjects is really-really critical coz it is...nearly to fail!!!! OMG.... i cant believe it!!! so many inisiative i've takes to improve my grades such like stayed up, focused (ya rite!) and many more but i still didn't can make it!!!!! arghh............... can somebody come help me????!!! surely not rite.....ohh..pity on me...kui..kui...

and you noe what??? lots of my things is disappear just like that!!! my beloved pencil case too..... how could this happen to me...??? i dun think i made a mistake but.... maybe i have lots of sins.......so......damn!!!

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cave of darkness in memory

menanti DiA..EH X..MEREKA...

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arghhh

arghh!!!! x leh jawab soalan biology tadi....macamner ni... antara idop dan mati ni... sob..sob.. arini badan rase sgt x ciat..--->xley jawab!!!!!

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dont judge a book by its cover!!!

my life today begin with something that are reall-really suck!!! bcoz i need to attend the physics practical...but its ok.. last nite i stayed up autil 3 a.m and now i am really tired...hik..hik...every nite,I like to dreams of the future better than the history of the past. yes it is bcoz we can motivate ourself to more alert with whatever comes around us...eh..aper ntah yg syer melalut ni.. semalam syer mimpi pasal dier... pasal dier yg syer suker sgt!!! tp sayang coz syer x dapat nak bgtow kat dier isi hati sayer n sayer da berjihad utk mempertahankan perasaan ini sebab sbg manusia kiter kan kene percaya pada qada dan qadar yg dah ditentukan oleh tuhan... hehe... maner lah tow kalo ader jodoh x ke maner nyer....arini ader meeting dgn mommy Ruzaini.. ktorg bincang pasal seni n SPM yg akan datang ni.. CUAKNYER!!!! selame syer idop ni x penah rase cuak yg melampau ni...ntah la.. nak kater cuak, study x jugak..hehe...susah lah.... matlamat idop da ader tp 'kerajinan'TU YG XDER.. HOPEFULLY nanti time SPM ader la luck...about case dgn junior tu..erm??? x tow la.. tp arini baru ktorg sedar yg bukan sumer cihkgu-cikgu yg berprasangka buruk kat ktorg... td ader meeting gak dgn beberapa cikgu-cikgu pompuan n baru ktorg realize yg dorg ni da bleh kiter ibaratkan sbg mak sendiri.. dorg bg nasihat n kata-kata semangat dlm nak menghadapi siuasi skrang ni...THANX GOD!!! sebenarnyer ... mmg sayer da rase da yg hanyer sesetengah cikgu jer yg bersikap prejudis terhadap kami pelajar form 5 tp aper yg kami x puas ati ialah bler adik-adik junior kami diberi layanan yg agak istimewa berbanding kami pelajar senior @ veteran kat skola ni..hm.. aper bleh buat.. cuba anda bayangkan kami plajar form 5 yg terpakse membuat mini tesis yg susah gler tu hanya mendapat hadiah johan iaitu rm 50 even kami tlah kluarkn bajet yg beratusan ringgit sedangkan pelajar junior yg johan pertandingan hias buah mendapat rm 100??? logik ke x logik???hmm..Obvious thinking commonly leads to wrong judgments and wrong conclusions.

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what happen around comes around

huh...so many things happen and "we" are stuck here alone....i dun noe what is the main 'things' which are now interrupt pur life...oops..our hostel life...hmm...byk sgt bende da jadi ni... ktorg sebagai senior kat skola ni tekah di anak tirikan oleh sumer cikgu-cikgu..entah la.. nasib baik pengetua yg ktorg syg tu x jd macam cikgu2.. sedey...bler cikgu sendiri ckp senior jahat-jahat eventhough ktorg x wat pon aper yg cikgu cakapa selama ni.. ya..kitorg sedar yg kitrg still maen-men even SPM da nak dekat ni..tp cikgu endiri yg wat ktrg rase mcm tu.. cikgu asyik dengar bdak2 junior cakap macm2 pasal kitrg...tp cikgu x penah sekali pon nak dgr pendapat kitorg, luahan hati kitorg and penjelasan kitorg....---->sedey!!! sayer sendiri sbg senior, sayang kat junior sayer tp kalo ader di antara mereka yg x hormat erm.. i mean wat hal dgn kitorg saper yg bleh sabar..setiap org kan ader tahap kesabaran mereka tersendiri.. kitog penah cuber nak jernihkan air yg dah kurg jernih cam air batu kapur ni tp kitorg x diberi kesempatan!!!! mereka yg memandang batch kitorg dari sudut negatif hanya akan sedar tentang keburukan kami jer...ooohhhh pening gler and tertekan!!!! da la SPM da nak tiba ni... kitorg skarang da jadi cam pelajar yg menagih keredhaan para gurunya sahaje..tapi kami SAYANG KAT CIKGU sebenarnya....kasih kami terhadap cikgu-cikgu memang x terhitung byknyer sbb dorg la yg bagi kitorg ilmu...pelbagai ilmu....tapi sekarang...hanya Tuhan yg tahu...masalah dgn junior ni sebenarnyer boleh disettlekn dgn senang tp ader pihak yg dah jadi batu api di antara kami....macam maner ni?????
Labels: life as a student...

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tension makes people lives the life...

wa....minggu ni pra trial spm...cuak gler...tp besh coz da ader perubahan dlm idop sayer... idop ni senang jerk kan??? mcm org slaloo kater..life is not easy but people make it simple...hheh.. org2 yg kat luar saner ni doakan la sayer success dlm spm ni yer...please.... thanx!!! minggu ni syer baru balik dri holiday sbnrnyer..eh x.. cuti sakit tp seminggu..yay!!! sgt besh ....da lamer x balek umah kn...tp rase-rase cam buang maser jer coz da r balik2 da exam tp sy x wat revision pon...hik..hik..tv..mkn..tv..mkn...online..online... tido..haha..sgt buang maser kan??? korang samer x dgn kiter??erm.. balik2 jerk maktab troz dpt tahu yg syer dicalonkan dlm anugerah miss popular..what?? miss popular??? hanyer Tuhan jer yg tahu camner nak pecah jantung ni ble tow pasal ni..yela..x suker..benci org wat gelaran-gelaran cam tu... sayer tow... sumer ni sbb peristiwa bodoh yg sayer penah wat dlu...huhu....n sayer tow org pon ader pggl sayer dgn gelaran laen..sgt menyedihkan bler kiter sendiri tatawu aper yg kter da wat kn??? kecewa pon ader gak...hmm...aper nak wat ah???I'm sick of the hurt, I'm sick of the pain but what kills me the most is that I pray I won't live another day.

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